I had my temper under control today, and apologized profoundly and profusely for being so angry yesterday. [The spirited show horse does not make a willing draft horse nor a patient plow animal.] It's hard for me to discipline myself to this kind of service to someone whose company I don't particularly like and service for which I am not being paid and for which there is no payoff except a sore back and interrupted sleep.

In the morning I had very low blood pressure--had to remain seated during the whole service--and then had a tachycardia event as the pressure of nursing duties resumed. Between the two, I feel pretty much drained. It will be a relief to go back to work tomorrow, no matter how hectic and confused. At least I am being paid for what I do and my efforts acknowledged and appreciated (by most).

But I kept my temper today. I served with a calm heart and a pleasant expression and gentle words and hands. A victory of sorts against anger and depression. Yay, me!