Fathers Day, Yesterday I came home from work about noon. John and I had invited his parents over for dinner. On one of my many breaks from cleaning, I started thinking about Fathers in general, and the men who have had an influence on my life. It's pretty sad, but I can't honestly say I have not had any postive male influences in my life. I've had plenty who humiliated, ignored, abandoned and resulted to physical violence, but none who where even worthy of a fathers day card. I have been lucky in the respect of having loving, strong, independant women in my life. They are the ones who sculpted the woman I am today. Sometimes I wonder who I would have been if I had had postive males in my developmental years. I like to think that the women in my life were enough. I think they were.
I do feel a little sorry for myself sometimes, never having been a "daddys little princess". Self pity can be fun at times, it gives me the excuse to behave badly, even if for only a short period of time :)
So what I have to say to the father and step father who were real pissers, is simply this.. I owe the woman I have become today to the women in my family. You can take no pride in thinking you had anything at all to do with my sucesses. Someday you will have to account for your conduct or lack there of, an I can only hope "your judge" is a far better "man" than you have been.

Happy Fathers Day Gents!