Well and so. Did I do the right thing? This is the thought that is irking me tonight. Sometimes I wish I was bigger and could stretch around the world.

smother it.

Guru is off at a bookstore, and I'm glad to have the house to myself. I perked right up as soon as he left. I always feel somewhat selfish about that. Not too selfish mind you but, some.

A lot of my problem right now is I'm wiped out. Too much, too often. My indicators are no longer reading anything that is not an emergency. Like I said to a co-worker earlier this week, "These days I have no priorties, only "now."

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I've been wandering in 15th cent. England this week, reading up on Richard III and really enjoying it. I had to research and re-write the opening monologue of Richard III ("now the winter of our discontent," etc.) This makes me want to watch my favorite version of it, or sit down and watch all the shakespeare I own. Or get all the histories he wrote and watch them in order.

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I've also been wresling with the Greeks (bad one, sorry) and I've come to a conclusion. I've always hoped I would open a fantasy/sci fi book and read a good representation of a matriarchal society. It's now become kind of a hobby of mine to read books evaluating this specific element. (I've not found it yet) [I guess I should qualify what I mean by "good". I mean accurate or authentic to my experence as part of the female species, as Zorba would put it. ]

But I think I figured a way to create/tell it. The key is creating an authentic "masculine harpy."

[this is where you say, what the hell is she taking about...]

So, I read Greek mythology for 24 hours, and then I watched and read Zorba the Greek. The bottom line is that Greek culture generated Greek myths. These myths are not some kind of "world myth donation fund" that anyone can use. They are specific to that cuture. We should be looking at them from inside that culture, not as generalizaitons of "War" "Sex" "Earth". You can't understand unless you take into consideration a greek granny in a small fishing village. If you don't understand her existance socially, you can't begin to unpack these myths.

So, the masculine harpy is the key. (or the mantra pointing to the key actually) If you can write an authentic masculine harpy, you can infer the rest of the structure thereby creating a matriarchal construction. Definition implied by an object's negative space.

Hazzah!