When was the last time I felt as wrecked as this, as if the whole world just turned its fucking back against me. When was the last time I was so ready to curse and swear at fate, for everything that has gone wrong in life? When was the last time I felt so out of control of the situation. When was the last time I allowed myself to drift because there was simply nothing I could do now. When was the last time I felt so.. So sad? I feel my emotions eating away, gnawing at what's left of me, which isn't alot. I felt like crying, tonight, but there simply isn't room for tears anymore. I don't know. What's this feeling I feel. This desolation that I cannot put a finger to. I feel like screaming, but that doesn't solve anything. What's this dangerous feeling that I am experiencing, something that is honestly pushing me over the edge. I feel myself standing precariously at the edge of life's building, just waiting for the gentle nudge of the cold blistering wind, to knock me over, to feel the rush of death. What the fuck have I done. What have I done. I'm fucking screwed. Because of what I've tried to salvage. How fucking stupid is that.