Oooo I'm sick of the hush hush and what not.. Tiring business this is. Why are things so difficult anyway, it's not as if I haven't tried. Bloody hell.

And when I try, both entities I tell you, I wind up in pain. And all I can do is to have hope in this futile dream just like Nick (pun absolutely intended) did, and pray that the dream isn't dead yet. I've honestly been trying, and I hope that a little or a lot, things have changed.

I can't really tell though, cos we're both in this crypto lingo, where we just not really tell much. On the other hand, I don't really want to know as well, because I could guess just as much. It's difficult to be stuck in this limbo, and I think you know, though I doubt you can empathise. But in all honesty, I try.

Been quitting loads of stuff lately, though this I am not ready to just as yet. I'm quite a noob at quitting really. That's all for now... A shot, perhaps? Because this time, I think I'm ready.