Hm. Is there a way to set my default mood when I create a new JS entry to be 'contemplative?' That seems to be when I JS best. Or at all.

So, I was talking with a coworker today. We were talking frankly about our product, our process, our upstream dependencies (in non-g33k-sp33k, that means "the stuff we rely on) and their process.

When first I joined this group, I thought I was B.S.ing everyone, because I didn't feel I knew what I was talking about. That has changed. I do feel I know what I'm talking about, at least in process and high-level design.

Where I thought I was B.S.ing everyone was where the rubber met the road. I can talk a good high-level design, a grand scope and scheme of how things should look, should act, should be. I feared that someone would say, "That's a good idea. So code it up."

That's where I fall down. I don't program. We went over this already. I script. I string together chunks of pre-written, pre-compiled, well-designed code and make them all dance to rhythm.

This may be me falling into the hubristic trap of snorting my own drugs, but I'm starting to believe that my grasp of process, of design, of information flow and how things should work is strong enough to make up for my weakness in coding.

No, I will still have to learn to code. My position writes code. No two ways about it. Either I code, or I find a new job. But where I may have poor grasp of the constructs available to me in coding (termed the Application Programing Interface, or API for short) I am sure my code will evidence strong design in spite of the weak execution.

Of course, that will have to improve, but I can learn. I do it all my life. In fact, those who know me have heard me say, "The day I stop learning is the day I start dying."