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2005-11-01 11:54 PM meh. Previous Entry :: Next Entry Mood: Tired Read/Post Comments (5) I found this journal community through my wife. we are betty wives....not that it needs to make sense to anyone else other than us.
I have always felt disdain at the idea of leaving journals on MYSPACE and the like...so here I am. I thought maybe I would ramble about the day....past days...evening....but now, I'm not so sure. I am emotionally and physically exhausted. within the last week...I have broken up with my soulmate...had the flu...lost a best friend...locked myself in a tent...lost another best friend....been disappointed in people more times than I can count...and felt like I let people down. I distance myself so it doesn't hurt so much....but as soon as I stop moving..thinking..distracting....there is the hurt. sharp and raw and waiting. I want...just once...someone to tell me to shut up. that they are going to love me despite the horror that seems to trail me...and that there isn't anything I can do to stop them. it won't ever happen....but it is a nice dream. as nice as I can think of, anyway. xoxox willow Read/Post Comments (5) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top |
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