My Ipod entry for the day was supposed to be "Glory & Consequence" by Ben Harper. I don't feel like posting all the lyrics, but the chorus is the main part -

Every moral has a story
Every story has an end
Every battle has its Glory
and its consequence

Pretty basic concept really. Two sides to every story. Taking the good with the bad, the bitter with the sweet, etc.

Sometimes it's hard to see both sides. When you are in the bad, it's impossible to see the good and vice versa. I wonder if you can really ever see both, unless it's from the outside or in retrospect. But it's a daily occurence nonetheless.

I have a friend going through a weird relationship, the good was really good, but now it's over and the bad is bordering on worse. In my position I want to tell her to enjoy what they had. To cut her losses and move on. But I've been there and I know that's much easier said than done. You get something good and you always want more. Everyone does. And who can blame us really? But does anyone ever really go into anything weighing out the options? Doubtful.

I guess I do. Sometimes. It's one of the curses that comes along with being way too analytical. And though it might in some ways prepare me for the fallout to come, it's still a curse, because it holds me back. I'm not the type to go jump off the edge of a cliff and pray for the best. Ok that's a bad metaphor, but still.

I wish sometimes that I could be more like the people who leap before looking as they say. There is this quote that I always seem to come back to, that I dwell on from time to time:

The greatest risk is not taking one.

Even though I know how true it is...I still find it hard. To just do something. Anything. I spend all my time going over things in my head. Back and forth. The good and the bad. And before I know it, the opportunity has passed. I guess it's sort of like when John Lennon said, "Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans."

Would I be happier if I took more risks? If I were brave enough to just put myself out there? I don't know. Maybe. Maybe not. The scary thing is the possibility that I will spend my life debating it and then end up having had no life at all. A bunch of conversations in your head is certainly no legacy. And no life lived.

"Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose.

Maybe Janice really knew what she was talking about. Then again, she does fit nicely into that 'Live Fast, Die Young' category. But what is the alternative? 'Live Slow, Die Old'? How appealing is that? Not very.