Trying again/Current goals
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Fasting BS@1524 - 149
Breakfast@1630 - Georgia's - Greek burger, lemon roasted potatoes, few bites galaktoboureko.
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Haven't been keeping up, AGAIN.. For a long time. 7 months, to be exact-ish.
Right now I'm very frustrated. DSHS is up to their usual tricks. I turn stuff in - have prof - they say they don't have it. They keep changing my address back to Marysville. I don't know why. I don't get their mail cause I don't LIVE there. I get in trouble for not doing what they tell me because I never got the letters cause they sent them to the wrong address, but it's my fault, somehow.
Am also frustrated at "having" (choosing to follow suggestion) to stop drinking coffee in the evenings. Right now, 2130 is the cut off time. It really ought to have been moved to 2100 by now, if not 2030. 2000 is the evening goal that I agreed to. 1500 is the actual preferred suggested goal, which I have been dismissing as "ridiculous" and refusing to do. Just texted Chris for input/help, and WILL follow his recommendations, regardless of whether I like it.
ALSO annoyed (mostly with self, partly at the world, partly Chris, sort of) at the new goal/restriction on using the word, "fucking", and/or any derivative of or substitution for it (farking, freaking, frigging, etc) for anything other than concious, mindful usage for the purpose of emphasising something which needs emphasising. Not meant to use the word(s) as "filler" at all. The reason for the original is because it deprives the word of its power, and cheapens it.
The "substitute" word part of it is simply based on it annoying Chris, which is perfectly fair, even though I don't necessarily like it.
I believe it will result in improving my overall being, but it still is irksome.
LeeRoy not only agrees and was unsympathetic, but had additional, even more persuasive reasoning - ie: the language I use directly impacts what/who I am and become. Of course, that is completely in line with my beliefs, and something I may have realised myself, had I been keeping up with my mindfulness practises in any meaningful way in the at all recent past.
SO... That actually is, or *should be* more compelling than it annoying Chris.
Gonna try to add to this later.
Also - reminder to self: post question about SO prefs, RE: special ordering @ restaurants.
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Lunch@ - None
Snack@ - none
Dinner@ - 0330
Meeting@ - No
Meds@
Bedtime BS@ -
Bed@
Fasting BS@1524 - 149
Breakfast@1630 - Georgia's - Greek burger, lemon roasted potatoes, few bites galaktoboureko.
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Haven't been keeping up, AGAIN.. For a long time. 7 months, to be exact-ish.
Right now I'm very frustrated. DSHS is up to their usual tricks. I turn stuff in - have prof - they say they don't have it. They keep changing my address back to Marysville. I don't know why. I don't get their mail cause I don't LIVE there. I get in trouble for not doing what they tell me because I never got the letters cause they sent them to the wrong address, but it's my fault, somehow.
Am also frustrated at "having" (choosing to follow suggestion) to stop drinking coffee in the evenings. Right now, 2130 is the cut off time. It really ought to have been moved to 2100 by now, if not 2030. 2000 is the evening goal that I agreed to. 1500 is the actual preferred suggested goal, which I have been dismissing as "ridiculous" and refusing to do. Just texted Chris for input/help, and WILL follow his recommendations, regardless of whether I like it.
ALSO annoyed (mostly with self, partly at the world, partly Chris, sort of) at the new goal/restriction on using the word, "fucking", and/or any derivative of or substitution for it (farking, freaking, frigging, etc) for anything other than concious, mindful usage for the purpose of emphasising something which needs emphasising. Not meant to use the word(s) as "filler" at all. The reason for the original is because it deprives the word of its power, and cheapens it.
The "substitute" word part of it is simply based on it annoying Chris, which is perfectly fair, even though I don't necessarily like it.
I believe it will result in improving my overall being, but it still is irksome.
LeeRoy not only agrees and was unsympathetic, but had additional, even more persuasive reasoning - ie: the language I use directly impacts what/who I am and become. Of course, that is completely in line with my beliefs, and something I may have realised myself, had I been keeping up with my mindfulness practises in any meaningful way in the at all recent past.
SO... That actually is, or *should be* more compelling than it annoying Chris.
Gonna try to add to this later.
Also - reminder to self: post question about SO prefs, RE: special ordering @ restaurants.
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Lunch@ - None
Snack@ - none
Dinner@ - 0330
Meeting@ - No
Meds@
Bedtime BS@ -
Bed@
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