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2013-02-26 3:31 AM Feb 25th Mood: Still, for the moment. Read/Post Comments (0) |
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Fasting BS=256 @1528 Breakfast@ NONE Lunch@aprox 1900 - Thai One On- 2 sm bowls Tom Kha, 1/2 plate phad thai Snack@010 - chips & dip Dinner@ NONE Meeting@ NONE Meds@0330 w/16 oz. 2% milk. Bed@ Read Chapter 3 of Alanon book. Belle was meant to be getting released tonight. Taz gave me more info. Stealing from Van, Taz, others; pawning everything, room .. well.. like a junkie's room. It's bad. REAL bad! We did the maths and it's been more like almost 2 years she's been doing it. Taz has been too.. just not as much, but still 3-4 times a week. Since Roy left July 2011. I don't know what I'm going to do other than just take care of me as best I can. This shit sucks! It's becoming more and more clear that I need outside help for being accountable. I need someone to enforce these goals. They need to be RULES, more than goals if I am to succeed. I haven't figured out what to do about that yet. It's complicated. I have a slave now and have made a commitment to him. I can't just abandon him because I decided I'm not strong enough to be free after all. Besides, I DO want to be free. I just want to have a mentor, or similar, to whom I am accountable. Much like a male relative would have been in many societies. Read/Post Comments (0) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top |
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