It's alive! IT'S ALIVE!!! MWHAHAHAHA!!!












Well look at that y'all, I'm alive.

Happy Halloween. I'm currently in the library dressed up as a gypsy because Paul has my pirate hat even though his Halloween costume is....a gas station worker? Don't ask. Anyway gypsy and pirate are almost the same costume for me. I just make a bit more noise and carry less weaponry as this.

So...life...what and how is it?
Life is lively, sorta.
Highlights of the past two weeks have been that my dog Eva gave birth to three puppies last week
and I had a genderless orgasm.
Oh no! I said the o-word! Like oh my gozz Lo, too much information.
Seriously, not as terrible as it sounds (not at all).
This sex educator by the name of Barbara Carrellas came to campus and gave a talk and a workshop. I couldn't make the talk as I was at the haunted walk scary place. The scary place must not have been too scary as I for one never screamed and could pick out where the people were going to jump out from. The freakiest thing to me was chain saw man but even that was not bad. The best thing about it was the corn chowder in the bread bowl.
Anyway, back to the orgasm.
Basically it happens through breath, energy focus and sound. That was it. Just changing our breathing and focusing on chakkras it happened. It was pulling the energy up, instead of filling the coffee cup you fill the whole ten gallons. It wasn't sexual though. It was like everything but the genitals but this amazing experience. Barbara said that there are different kinds of orgasms, like ca laughgasm/gleegasm, a crygasm, an angergasm, etc. They don't have to be sexual. They are this release of like energy and tension that build up.
We did this in a room of 40 people. I don't really know how to describe it. But you didn't care because everyone just kind of threw aside any self-consciousness and did it because we were all going there together. We drowned each other out in the wall of sound we made with our exhales, sounds that were natural too us. No more "quick and quiet". At some points the noise was slightly distracting but at a certain point you don't hear it anymore because it's just you and everything. You get to this high and you're not really aware of your body any more. You're letting it do what it needs to. Other people in the room described it as being in drugs without the use of any drugs at all.
I think where I felt the release most was in my chest, like someone had split open my rib cage and let it go. Also my hands went pretty numb, like all tingly because there was so much enregy in me.
So after we did this clench thing, where you take a deep breath and tighten your whole body, you have this great release. Some people laughed, some cried, some just, I dunno. What i felt was peace, a stillness that I seldom ever feel because even when I'm calm my mind is always going. But I let go of all thought and just was and felt semi-melted in to the floor. I coughed too. Afterward I coughed so hard I thought it was a pneumonia cough, but it may have been just everything coming out from that deep place where I stash it. I laughed too, because at one point the whole room broke in to spontaneous combustive laughter and couldn't stop.
When we finally came back down and were aware of ourselves and our bodies again everyone just kind of walked around in this haze, hugging each other and stuff and just like "Wow". We wandered out of the building like a gaggle of drunk people that were by a breath test totally sober.
About six of us went to grab food afterward and broke in to more riotous laughing fits to the point of getting a few grumblings from others. It left me sensitive and still and kind of decided too and stronger as well. It was cool.
Now anyone that experienced it just kind of smile at each other, like we bonded because in the point of our souls being free from our bodies we bonded. So it's like "Yeah, we had that together.
Mmmhmm.
So now you know. Tantric breathing...it's all good.

Other than that I've been in homework land and Um...I dunno.
Yesterday my freshman friend walks in the room like "I'm bored. I hate the way my room is set up. Want to help me rearrange it?" I said sure. So I put my inherent furnature moving skills to work, eyeballing and rearranging. It is kind of like doing a puzzle. So we moved all her stuff in to the hall and set about flip flopping her room without touching her roommate's side. It came out pretty nice with more room and a more open feel to it with the wardrobe (an oppressing and somewhat difficult item in our building's room) on the wall and everything sort of on either side.

I think someone has put something in the air in my room. Sammy and I will just break out in to random voices or moments where we just stop and dance or we'll sing or talk in the most random voice for like 15 minutes and then we just collapse in to hysterical laughter. Just like STOP it's goofy time!
In form of the trio we have been slightly less close lately but I think we are all facing sort of battles in our minds right now. I'm just rather tired more but Sammy and Guy have me just a bit worried. I try to pry it out but I think they'll come forward in time. I feel like a worried mother hen sometimes.

Self defense is going well. I'm just a bit tired from it. It is fun. I mean where else does someone say "Oh just punch me in the face, we'll start there"? Haha.

Anyhway, I have to go run an errand for a librarian.
Farewell.
Peace.
~Lo