Let us skip
the hi
the hello
the how
Lets skip all that and just get to the NOW
Tired of small talk and blither and blubber
I want the meat now and the side dish later
So excuse me for cutting to whatever point is on my mind like finger vomit
because I want to talk about the homosexuals in my dreams
and the annoying definition on dreammoods.com about transgenders
and how it angers me because there are biases
and I want to get right to this without laughs and without someone giggling about how awkward that is.
How does dreaming of homosexuals mean you are unified in spirit and transgenders mean you are confused? In my mind I see the transgenders as more unified. Because it is the sex of the body taking on another gender. To me the represents acceptance of another part more than homosexuality. Homosexuality is.... the same. Homogeneous and that. So I wasn't cool with that interpretation....Or that sex in dreams just means you want it.
I guess it's all relative to the person dreaming and how they interept it....which is why I will never go on a dream website again. I know what it all means already don't I?

I've realized that as you grow older less and less do people tell you the rules. They just automatically assume you already know the rules. Like "okay well you must have observed enough as a kid, you must know this". My answer is: hell no I did not. I was busier trying to understand other stuff, watching the game for a long time before I ever started playing. Now I have to learn the new rules to other games without people telling me.
Society is maddening!

I'm having a bit of trouble lately in my thoughts.
What road do I choose?
Sometimes I want to head down the straight and steady and say 'Yes, I would like to be a teacher or librarian' but then something grates against it, like the environment of the school. It reminds me of what I hated so much about it myself and I wonder if I want to WORK in the environment that makes me head spin. From library work, it just requires a lot of interaction with people it seems( really varies by library but yeah..) and I'm okay at it but I'm more straight delievery rather than adding a sonnet and some ribbons. I take you straight to want you want, no frills. So public relations isn't great for me there.
Then I want the not-so-straight-wandering-road. Maybe I would be good at the holistic sort of healing that I believe so much in myself. The connection to nature, the massage, the energies and all that. But then the down side is they are physically tiring.
I'm just..conflicted. I know it will work itself out, yadda yadda yadda. Just annoying.



Sometimes I wish the shower water actually got hotter than the sink water. Ack! Thing I dislike most about college: the showers and the hard water and that I still manage to get pimped out with pimples.
It makes me REALLY appreciate my home bathroom.
Also, college bathroom....mystery damn poopers are Satan.
Just needed to get that off my chest.


The night before last in my dream I had a visit from an old pet, a black cat named Spooky that has been dead for a looooong time now. I was in bed at my dorm and she sat on a pile of my stuff, silhouetted in the window, blinding white outside, watching me, checking up on me. I pet her and actually felt her warm fur and her paws and claws doing that kneading thing that cats do.
I don't think I've had a former pet visit me in dreams and it was interesting that it was her. I guess I need more guidance lately in some way.

Anyway, I'm sleepy and I've mulled over this entry long enough.
Peace.
~Lo