I think I need to make a date with the stars.

On the way back from the city I looked out and up through the van window and I wondered "When was the last time I looked at the stars? When was the last time I became lost in them as I am now?" I used to look at them all the time, become completely lost. I used to do the same with the clouds and the day sky.
So I really need to start looking up more. I need a date with the stars.

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My Valentines Day was quite nice. Seeing Peat's version of our meeting. But then there were the other cool pictures of people in costume. It occurs to me that I forgot to tell him happy birthday in person though....Gah.

Guy, Sammy and I went to the city as a sort of date with each other. I am a player fer reelz though. I have Guy, Sammy, Ben, a Wells wife or two, a Wells baby....So much love, haha.
Anyhoo, my girls and I went to see He's Just Not That Interested which was pretty good. I totally ended up snorting in the movie theatre. I love when the whole audience is uncontrollably dying of laughter or all awwws together or starts clapping, etc...
We went to eat the traditional Chinese mall food afterward and then went to have photo booth fun. In one of the photos I look like I am crazily having a seizure or something. In another one we tried serious sexy face and I look like I am contemplating mass murder. The other two pictures we are all smiley and cute.

The rest of the evening I spent talking with Ben. We were up rather late which I haven't done in a while with him. It was actually rather nice. We played a game of Literati and he whooped my ass. But I won through my awesome face melting romantic skillz. So yeah.

I don't like Valentines Day much because of the expectations and I am prone to do things unexpectedly. Surprises are more my kind of thing. But it was a nice day anyway.

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I am becoming slightly frustrated with my roommate lately. She has facebook statuses that make me worried and then will not tell me what is wrong. It kind of feels like someone says "Hey!" and then slams the door in your face. I want to be here for her and not have her go through whatever it is alone. As a person who is prone to wanting to help people any way I can it is frustrating and it makes me examine myself to see what is about me that doesn't make her feel she can come to me. I let her off easy sometimes but I have lived with her long enough that I can feel the sadness in her. It has been an undercurrent since last semester and it was bad then because we were both rather depressive.
I feel like it kind of drives me from the room a bit. I can feel the stillness of the sadness but then the wall around it that will not let me in.
When I am in a good mood I tend to want to roam anyway and be out of the room and be more mobile but her...I am just worried and frustrated. I want to pull her out but it is impossible without some willingness. I'm not sure what to do. My mind knocks around all these possibilities but she won't talk about it. I want her to feel happy. I want her to not be afraid but yeah....It's hard when I do not know exactly where she is.

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I think I am going to take a walk today, go up and about the golf course. I need a date with nature and fitness. My body feels semi-stagnant, like it needs a rebirth and fresh air.

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I suppose life is pretty good for the most part this semester though. I mean there are stresses but I feel better about it all. It is more small things to work out than big. They are not looming great things.

But speaking of things....I must go do homework....like now.

Peace.
~Lo

31 Days of YFAT