After talking to a few friends and my mom I am decisively giving up Self-Defense for the semester.
I am not taking the class for credit and it stresses me out more than it helps me at this point. I have resolved to not take any bullshit this year and at this time it is all that class has become. I shouldn't be reduced to a sensory overload attack this early in the semester and I shouldn't have to be the bitch that keeps people on task and in order. I am not the instructor.

I think I will save my martial arts for the great studio I found at home. I have had conflicts with Kevin and Jake for far too long now. As proud as I am of being a dedicated person it isn't worth it anymore. It is similar to my break up with Ben- I've tried to before but I really need to make it for real to do what is best for my well being. It causes more mental stress than I need. After a wait I will move on to something amazing.
This is for real this time.

I think instead I am going to make a resolution to go walking everyday again. Maybe I'll hike some of the area landscapes. I can train my body without needing them.



This weekend my plans are to throw myself into my thesis (had a ton of books come in). Tonight I am having an evening out with some friends and then am back on campus to finish the night with a few other ladies. I am also getting a haircut at last! I have been feeling on the shaggy side and am looking forward to the trim.

Now I'm off to attack homework and thesis for the morning.
Peace.
~Lo