Your Favorite Annoying Teen

Sorry for the freak out but seriously, this year has been fugging ridiculous to my man and I. We think we have a moment to breathe and then ALL THE SHIT! ALL OF IT ANAKIN!

I have the potential to get a full time job....even though it's through a temp agency....even though it possibly means owning a car...and being corporate.
I'm trying to reconcile that against my long term goals and happiness when part of me is still the punk ass, anti-authoritarian, weirdo, shit head that I always have been.

My partner is running into the ceiling with his job already. There's almost certainly no room to move up. He'd like his hard work to add up to something and maybe live the American Dream that we are supposed to believe in....when really it might just be a pipe dream. So he wants to move on.

In the mean time for the past three weeks we've been dealing with a fucking resurgence in bed bugs. We didn't know they were bed bugs this time last year and went absolutely fucking crazy for two months trying to deal with the problem, finally resulting in us destroying our couch and sitting in lawn chairs for 4-5 months while we eventually acquired a new one....WHICH WAS EXPENSIVE! WHICH WE WOULD REALLY LIKE TO NOT HAVE TO GET RID OF!
...and this time our landlord knows and says it's not his problem to deal with because he didn't "find" anything.
So we're like, fuck this we're moving.

...which is a nightmare when rent has gone up by at least $100 in the past four years for anywhere decent and we live in a fugging nice neighborhood at a reasonable price...even though our apartment is falling apart and the landlord won't take care of the bug problem. I STILL work two part time, minimum wage jobs which are not quite full time, and I still don't own a car.

Speaking of cars, because we have endless winter a squirrel decided he was cold and fucking ate out my fiance's car wires like it was a fucking five star buffet.
This is the week which my fiance's work is at half-staff because they HAVEN'T FUCKING HIRED ANYONE, he has mandatory overtime, oh and I needed the car to get around to my corporate setup stuff.

So I am freaking out
because it's pouring here
and my fiance and I are struggling to stay sane
when more than ever life feels like it's one giant earth quake because absolutely nothing is certain right now
and yet we need to keep holding onto the reins.

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Previous Entry :: Next Entry Read/Post Comments (1) Share on Facebook A summery of Your Favorite Annoying T... Hello, I am YFAT or Lo. I have been writing/around on Journal Scape for over a decade now. Time flies! This journal chronicles my random thoughts, high moments and sometimes low, throughout high school, college, and now beyond, into the world of "adulthood", whatever that means. Sinerely, ~Lo		2016-04-10 8:19 PM Ranting Sorry for the freak out but seriously, this year has been fugging ridiculous to my man and I. We think we have a moment to breathe and then ALL THE SHIT! ALL OF IT ANAKIN! I have the potential to get a full time job....even though it's through a temp agency....even though it possibly means owning a car...and being corporate. I'm trying to reconcile that against my long term goals and happiness when part of me is still the punk ass, anti-authoritarian, weirdo, shit head that I always have been. My partner is running into the ceiling with his job already. There's almost certainly no room to move up. He'd like his hard work to add up to something and maybe live the American Dream that we are supposed to believe in....when really it might just be a pipe dream. So he wants to move on. In the mean time for the past three weeks we've been dealing with a fucking resurgence in bed bugs. We didn't know they were bed bugs this time last year and went absolutely fucking crazy for two months trying to deal with the problem, finally resulting in us destroying our couch and sitting in lawn chairs for 4-5 months while we eventually acquired a new one....WHICH WAS EXPENSIVE! WHICH WE WOULD REALLY LIKE TO NOT HAVE TO GET RID OF! ...and this time our landlord knows and says it's not his problem to deal with because he didn't "find" anything. So we're like, fuck this we're moving. ...which is a nightmare when rent has gone up by at least $100 in the past four years for anywhere decent and we live in a fugging nice neighborhood at a reasonable price...even though our apartment is falling apart and the landlord won't take care of the bug problem. I STILL work two part time, minimum wage jobs which are not quite full time, and I still don't own a car. Speaking of cars, because we have endless winter a squirrel decided he was cold and fucking ate out my fiance's car wires like it was a fucking five star buffet. This is the week which my fiance's work is at half-staff because they HAVEN'T FUCKING HIRED ANYONE, he has mandatory overtime, oh and I needed the car to get around to my corporate setup stuff. So I am freaking out because it's pouring here and my fiance and I are struggling to stay sane when more than ever life feels like it's one giant earth quake because absolutely nothing is certain right now and yet we need to keep holding onto the reins. Read/Post Comments (1) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top