Had the trial from hell today. Not that it was so bad on me. I sort of enjoyed myself in a perverse fashion. It's kind of like running a marathon. I really pushed myself to edge preparing for this thing and I have that wiped out elated, adrenaline high thingy going on.

It was hell on my client though who at one point was crying in the hallway. I feel sorry and I wish I had the resources to win, but I don't. And there was just no way to settle even knowing that it was a loser. And even believing my client.

Anyway very draining stuff. It's why I left last year. I was just completely burned out on this shit. But it is the nature of what I am stuck doing. It's no longer a question of whether I am the RIGHT person to do this, I am THE person doing this, and I just have to do my best with what I'm given.

So afterwards, as I had promised myself, I saw 'The Matrix Reloaded'. Very fun. I liked the dance/sex scene. I like the look that Keanu and Carrie Ann give each other at 'that' moment. People have pointed out lots of things that make us different from other animals and I'm inclined to believe that referential symbolism is the key, but face to face sex and the ability to look in your partner's eyes at 'that' moment is pretty damn good.

I also liked all the black people in positions of power. Cowboy Curtis was also very, very cool. And Agent Smith was cool and I think he will be crucial to Neo's ultimate success in the final sequel. Favorite quote: (or something like it) "French is my favorite language. So beautiful to speak. Especially for cursing. It's like wiping your ass with silk. I love it." Incidently here's a link to The Kingdom of Merovingia

I'm very tired and should be getting to sleep so I think I'll babble some more. I remember that during my first year in college I kept thinking that people all looked like chimpanzees. I sort of wanted to beat my chest and screech at them. I was also taking chemistry and I remember walking outside for the first snowfall and seeing not snow, but a solid precipitate condensing from a saturated gaseous medium.

There that should cover it. There's one other thing I could say but it would be a waste so I won't.