I am so tired. I keep nodding off at the computer. I'm not even sure a few Red Bulls will keep me awake in class this morning. Have you ever been so tired that it's almost physically impossible to keep your eyes open? Where they feel so heavy and every time you blink they stay shut just a little bit longer? That's me right now. I got two hours of sleep last night and I can really feel it this morning. I'm also beginning to get a headache right between my eyes. That may be because I'm tired or it might be because I need a new RX for my glasses. Either way, I'd give anything to be able to crawl back into bed for another 10 hours or so.

I did some thinking last night, and I really think I'm going to go ahead with that surgery I've been talking about. I'm going to call my Dad and see if I can get a consultation with the doctor sometime when I have a bit of free time. My self esteem has been very low recently and I think the only reason I'm not in another one of my suicidal states is because Rob is there for me. He gives me something to be here for and to look forward to. He also makes me realize that no matter how ugly I think I am, he still thinks I'm beautiful. I don't understand it and I think he's blind, but I'm not complaining.

I don't know. I've just been in a funk recently. I've been getting more and more depressed and I don't know why. I'm mostly depressed about my looks. When I look in the mirror, I see something horribly ugly staring back at me. Is it any wonder why I /hate/ pictures of myself? Seeing pics of me just make me hate myself even more. I'm fighting an uphill battle with my weight and my looks and I'm getting sick of it. I'd like to be able to be proud of the fact that I'm in law school and have some brains, but in this looks obsessed world where a size 2 is the "perfect" size, it doesn't matter how smart I am or who I am on the inside. All people see is a "fat girl".

Okay, I need to stop with the depressing stuff here. Here's a mindless quiz:

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