It's August already? Holy crap, how did that happen? It seems like just yesterday that 2008 rolled around. Time is going way too fast. I remember that when I was a child time seemed to go so slowly. One school year was like an eternity. Now, a year goes by in the blink of an eye. I wish it would go by more slowly. I'm seeing myself age too quickly and my baby is growing up way too fast.

Already August and I don't have a single job prospect. You can't get a job without experience and you can't get experience without a job. Clerks and unpaid employees out here need to be law students and not licensed attorneys. Even the pro bono jobs are being snatched up by experienced attorneys who want something on their resume while being laid off. The economy blows and I can see it the most in my job hunt and how much of our monthy budget goes to gas.

I really wish I could get my dad to call me back. I'm trying to contact him again for two main reasons. The first is because I haven't seen him in close to a year. I'd like to see him again and I'd like Gabriel to see him as well. I mean, Gabriel knows he has my Mom as a Grandmother and calls her Nana. He knows he has Linda as Grandmother and calls her Gamma. He knows he has Charles as a Grandfather and calls him Appa. He doesn't even know my dad is another Grandfather and has no name for him. Also, I still have his Xmas present. *sigh* The second thing I want to talk to him about is help. I really need some help finding a job and I know he has connections in the area. Why he hasn't aided me in this is beyond me, but I need help in finding a job and I'm not too prideful to ask for it.

As much as the lack of a job is getting me down (come on, I suffered through law school and passed two state bars on the first try, isn't it time that paid off), there is one bright shining star that keeps me happy and sane. Gabriel. (Yes, Rob and my Mom are there for me as well, but they're not around during the workday when I get all depressed.) Being able to spend this time at home with him just being a Mom is incredible. I now understand why my Mom chose to be a stay at home Mom. It's the most rewarding job on the planet. I love him so much and I think I can safely say he's learning more from me than he would at daycare. He can count, he can say his alphabet, he can recognize letters out of order (and numbers too), and he's beginning to read with the use of phonics. Now if I could just get him to use the potty...

You honestly never know what true, unconditional love is until you have a child. It's the most amazing feeling in the entire world.

So, welcome to August. I'm sure it will be September before I even know it. Meh.

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