Just over a week of school left, and boy am I ready. I don't remember being this burnt out in the past. Maybe it's the combination of my first year back, and LB. I'm enjoying being back in the classroom, but it's still lots of work. I have mixed feelings about the future. Living as a teacher isn't bad work. It pays decently-not great, I won't get rich, but I won't starve either, the benefits are good, and the vacations are nice (except that they're at the same time as everyone else's vacations). I like teaching, but I'm not sure that it'll be forever.

Just a few weeks ago it dawned on me. I don't have a career path because I haven't found what I truly have a passion for. I've enjoyed many of the things that I do, but I'm not passionate about them. I know so many physics teachers who keep up on current research, or read up on everything they can find, or spend countless hours and dollars building lab and demo equipment for use in their classrooms. I don't do any of these things, and I don't have a great desire to do so. When I'm not at school, I'd rather be relaxing, spending time with friends and family, or doing something fun.

So many of my friends have a passion for something, at least. Be it gaming, writing, filmmaking, horses, or whatever. I don't have that passion, yeah I enjoy lots of this stuff, but I'm not passionate about it, any of it.

Phil's given me a book to read through and I'll probably give it a go this summer, but I doubt that a book will be able to really tell me what my passion is. Taking the tests and stuff, I can find all kinds of careers that I'd be good at, but that doesn't mean I want to have them as careers. I hope that some day I'll find that passion, but right now, it's not here.