Okay so I'm trying to get a hold of understanding this thing called "schmering" (a word used on me today by 2 different people in 2 different situations). I admit I'm a good conversationalist, but I realized I really didn't enjoy going to a bar to meet a whole bunch of casting directors. What happened to auditions? I'll probably be the only actor in the world that's begging for a audition in a cold, stark room where it's so quiet you can hear a pin drop. It's not always like that but you get my point. Even so....I would rather have that or a panel of people staring at me or having a camera pointed at me and not being able to move out of my little bubble- (film auditions for a physical actress are torture. I'm constantly going out of the frame.) -that's more comfortable to me, rather than meeting in a loud bar and trying to convince someone in 30 seconds or less that a lot of theater training is a good thing for a film actress and that I'm in the process of developing my reel...just waiting on a few film projects I wrapped to finish editing. However, there's the gum chewing, hair tossing, cliche AcTress standing behind me who will most likely get cast because of her "dazzling personality"! Aren't I too young to be cynical? Sorry to be so negative / passionately charged on a friday afternoon, but I'm getting very anxious. On a happy note I just spent 3 hours talking with one of the lawyers that I work with...having a great old time on a bottle of french wine. Thank God I turned in my stats to my boss this morning.