Number crunching... I like to think I'm pretty good at it.

Looking at the big picture... I like to think I do fairly decently in that area as well.

Decision making... Some decisions are easier to make than others.

After two days of number crunching, figuring out my expenses and financial needs and resources for the immediate future, for the next few months, and for the next year, I had to make the hard choice to decline the offer that I got on Thursday. At this point in time, the decision to take that step is not currently financially viable. I haven't been as smart with my finances as I probably should have been over the past few years, and am really not prepared for what it would take to succeed in this decision... at this time.

Currently, I feel very confident in myself. I now know that when I am financially prepared to take a step that would require such preparation and start with such a challenge, I should have no problem making that career decision in the future. I passed all of the requirements and interviews, and would know exactly how to get what I want out of the process again.

I'm just at a point right now where I need to lock in some stability, and don't feel secure winging it at this point. It is dissapointing to have to turn something like this down, but it is better to be realistic and look at all factors... Hell, I think the fact that I can look at this situation like this is one of the qualities that makes me desirable for this type of work.

So, tonight holds gaming, WtF and Requieum. Tomorrow, if I can get it together and manage a way out there by 9 AM, will be Hike the Geek, where I hope to meet some new people and get out into the open. Let me know if ya wanna go. :)

Next week is so far two interviews, possible karaoke on Monday night, and from my understanding, my older sister will be in town so hopefully I will get a chance to see her.

I won't be back online till late tonight.

Thank you everyone for your support and encouragement and inspiration. You are all awesome.