Not one but two months away from journaling. Not from reading mind you, I've been keeping up with all of you, but each time I sit to possibly do a journal entry, thoughts flit in and out so quickly. Among the many other things that I should be doing as opposed to a journal entry, or just not being able to focus at all.
That’s how I felt today, scattered and unfocused. About a dozen tasks in front of me, and doing a lot of work (a lot of my work is attending to tasks at a moment’s notice, among things on my list to complete, management stuff, meetings, etc.), but not feeling like I was putting much into it. Then I get that dreaded feeling that I’ve just been screwing around all day. So as I often do I bring work home. I haven’t even pulled it out of my bag. Instead, I’m watching Erik play the “new toy” (to be revealed later, it is still a surprise for some future visitors) and waiting for my turn to play again.
Today I’ve been lost in thought a bit I guess. I’ve been feeling a bit inspired, but also feeling a bit stuck. Feeling a bit accomplished, but also feeling quite behind. Feeling the brink of vibrant creativity, but also stuck in a dull grey holding pattern.
Okay, my turn. *cracks knuckles, rolls neck*….(brb)
So okay, the past few weeks, two months, whatever. Highlights and lowlights:
Been working a lot. Being on call kinda sucks. Being a manager in the tech/info industry is not always the most glamorous job in the world. One year review coming up on the 25th of this month already. Wow. Dammit, I hope I’ve been rocking this place as much as I think I have. If not, at least I’ll know where I’m at. I’ve felt a little like I’ve been flying blind with little to gauge/measure exactly “well” I am doing.
Yesterday: Waiting around all day for thorns to call. Caught up on BSG that we got from Netflix. I must say, I can see why Star Trek Enterprise had trouble keeping it’s head above water when going up against Stargate and BSG. I really dig good characters and plots that keep going in a very serial manner.
Texas was good. Enjoyed visiting with Erik’s parents. Glad I was able to go to help them out and to spend time with them and with him (without me bringing work home to stare at in the evenings and then go to bed first like I usually do). Caught up on movies. Chatted a whole lot. Very interesting, Starr and John. I can relate to both of them quite well, on different levels of things. Analyzed season one of The Office with John from a management instruction POV, and chatted about health and family and other things with Starr. I’m really glad that I have gotten to know them as well as I do.
Excitement for gaming has been kinda holding steady, but dropping off a bit every now and then. Not sure if I’m just getting jaded or burnt out, or if things have just fallen into a slump. Nothing recently has really struck me for a while to really get involved in, but there are some things that I am still looking for ward to. Maybe some events coming up with shake some excitement loose.
I did buy a critical costume piece for a new character in a new venue. Finally. It wasn’t cheap, and is on its way from the UK as we speak. I am excited about it. Now to finally finish putting the character from my head onto paper.
*yawn* After 11. Considering I hit my snooze button this morning only to wake up two hours later, the second alarm completely failing to go off, I should probably get some sleep.
Payday tomorrow. Which means budget and bills. Been dropping a lot of money lately, so need to taper off and get some stuff paid up.
The next couple of days will include some major grocery shopping, organizing, cataloging my books (ongoing project), possibly chopping my hair way short again, more journaling, importing more music into my computer from my extensive collection, finishing season one of BSG, and I am sure there will be some, gaming, generally screwing around and lazing about as well.
And I will master Killer Queen if it is the last thing I do. (Okay, so that may have given it away)

Edit: BTW, in thorns defense, he was busy doing something really cool (jumping out of a perfectly good airplane), and it was totally his birthday so he can totally do that too.