One True Thing

9 days till my birthday.

My weekend should be interesting. Stippers, alchohol, and other things...

Why is it that I'm finding it hard to be happy?

My dad's death anniversary is this weekend as well. I'm really not sure how I feel about that. I should be sad, but I'm really just empty about it.

Should I feel more? Should I try to care? Because my brother is pratically having histronics, and I don't know how to feel that way when he seems to make such a production of it. I want my grief to be a quiet thing, I don't want to be sharing it with a million freaking people. (Seems odd to write about it on the internet then, huh?)

Well, soon comes the writing project. I hate to abuse JS (sorry Kenny) but I'll be starting another journal very shortly...probably a word of mouth kind of thing. I'm not gonna publicize it, but I am thinking of starting a project...and LJ doesn't satisfy.

Now, to put a picture in my "bio".




	One True Thing in the ocean of noise Home Get Email Updates not the passenger and somewhere alfie smiles I used to have a hamster tree and the man with the golden gun lily is dancing on the table the room of the banished poet but you're not here I want to paint it black if you can come to california till human voices wake us Email Me Admin Password Remember Me 6126 Curiosities served Share on Facebook				2003-02-06 11:42 PM 'Round here she's slipping through my hands... Previous Entry :: Next Entry Mood: melancholic joy? happy sorrow? lost... Read/Post Comments (1) 9 days till my birthday. My weekend should be interesting. Stippers, alchohol, and other things... Why is it that I'm finding it hard to be happy? My dad's death anniversary is this weekend as well. I'm really not sure how I feel about that. I should be sad, but I'm really just empty about it. Should I feel more? Should I try to care? Because my brother is pratically having histronics, and I don't know how to feel that way when he seems to make such a production of it. I want my grief to be a quiet thing, I don't want to be sharing it with a million freaking people. (Seems odd to write about it on the internet then, huh?) Well, soon comes the writing project. I hate to abuse JS (sorry Kenny) but I'll be starting another journal very shortly...probably a word of mouth kind of thing. I'm not gonna publicize it, but I am thinking of starting a project...and LJ doesn't satisfy. Now, to put a picture in my "bio". Read/Post Comments (1) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top