BodyChoir is something I started going to the summer of my separation. I went regularly for about 4 months and then began to go less frequently. Friday night I attended BodyChoir with the children, having not attended (also with the children) since last July.

Stripping aside the rationalizations the reason I went less frequently is that while BodyChoir is something that is very good for me it also brings up a lot of my 'stuff' - BodyChoir shows me where I continue to not accept myself.

My experience Friday night was positive. I recognized many people I'd met before and saw new people. Going in with the intent to accept myself, for the first time ever I felt moved to do quietly my toning/sub-vocalizing/chanting thing which I did most of the program. It felt really good and was a good exercise in just being myself.

T and I danced from time to time - I think he danced more Friday than any other dance. He continues to be my role model as he truly dances as if no one is watching.

Afterwards I talked a little with Elizabeth, Micah and Bruce. They were all very supportive and said they were glad to see I was back.

I talked with Micah a little about what I'm going through and he told me that he went through the same thing. It's hard to believe but ok - some of the other old-timer's have told me the same thing in the past.

Attending Friday night helped to get things moving again. I was up late that night musing on what is going on in my life and experienced some new insights.

I have asking "How can I love myself?" a lot this Spring and realized today that going to BodyChoir is very loving act. Yes it does dredge up my stuff and that gives me an opportunity to see what stuff I have left and release it while at the same time (most of the time?) it is very healing (and fun!) on some deep levels.

I'm glad I went.