It is good to have friends point things out to you!! Teri pointed out that earlier my dream was to write and my most recent post went back to crochet. And she askek a very important question that leads to why my dreams change-in times of stress which way do I go? In times of high stress, I become more of a loaner, I write. alot. Do I still want to write, yes. But that crochet dream is still there. Can I do both? I don't know. What I do know, is - As I read the journals of writers, serious writers, they all have one thing in common. They have been writing alot. For a long time. For since forever-they carry notebooks with them either physically or in their heads. Me, it has been sporadic, and mainly in times of stress. So that muse is not permanent.

My crochet muse is. It is always underlying. Even when I think that I am bored with it, I am still looking, and my brain picks up on it-my crochet notebook is in my head. I see something and think-"I could do that-change the color-add this or that, maybe use that stitch." So maybe my book won't every get sold, it will get finished -but slowly. I will sell crocheting. I have sold croceting. I have two dreams, both will be worked on, both will be my sanity. One will probably be my second career. (or fifth depending on how you break down my life.)

I see crochet patterns in sunlight. I watch shows and pick out crochet items-if hubby shows me something I can tell him in a heartbeat if it is crochet or not. And now I am picking up knitting to add to the mix. And crochet & knit mix very well.

So I guess, I am saying, I can't choose between the both of them. Depending on what I am feeling, what is going on, my dream does change a bit. I am not narrow focused. I have both. I will do both. (If Debbie MaComber can write then break out in knitting, why can't my dreams encompass crocheting and writing?) Will I be as successfull? Probably not. It is not my aim to be. I want to be happy enough. I want to have a contented life. And that is what I am aiming for. (yes it is working. Wonders what realling talking about things does for a marriage. As soon as there is a possible miscomunication!)

Rhubarb, I do learn better when my hands are busy and when I have had a chance to think about things. Drives instructors crazy. I learn by doing with instructors guiding. Straight lectures never work for me now, neither does straight reading.