I did not know how stressed I was about the possibility of dismissal. I did not realize how it was affecting me-I should have, but I thought I had a good handle on it. I wrote that I did. But you wouldn't believe how well I slept last night. Even with a contretemps with DH, I slept deeply. I actually felt rested this morning. And I am here-12 days in a row. It has been a long time since I have been able to do that. I feel good, I am handling the minor things as they come and the rest rolls off my back. It helps that I look at my DH and know that he sees things a little different, but he's trying too. Unfortunately, I messed up last night, so it is up to me to make it up if you will. And I will, just not tonight or tomorrow night-knitting.

And speaking of knitting-that is even going a little better. Still not as fast as someone who is just doing the stockinette stitch, but a lot faster than it was. I can 'feel' when I have gone off pattern.

Spoke to DD last night. Her MIL is crazy. MIL has decided that she doesn't want to live in the house she has been buying anymore. Now this woman blew through a life insurance from her second husband (instead of paying the mortgage) then lost her job. My DD who works in collection and who has filed bankruptcy was trying to tell MIL steps to take. First was don't move out-stay in house, contact lawyer, get rid of uneccesary expense, (expensive gym membership, nails done biweekly, eating out-etc). MIL took offense and told my dd that she didn't know anything about it. MIL has left house and rented an apartment in druggie area of town. Supposedly she contacted lawyer who told her to move out before filing bancruptcy. Uh, not a good one that's for sure!! MIL got fired from her long term job, got hired for another barely made it through training and lost job, is in training for another and doesn't look like she's going to last there either. The capper was when MIL didn't bother going to family -an uncle-funeral when everyone else did because she was moving. (um, take 2 hours out of moving and go-) DD was embarrassed for family and apologized to daughter, told SIL-if your mother wants anything from us answer is no. DGD hasn't been allowed at MIL house for awhile because of MIL behavior-very inappropriate. SIL is having a hard time, after all this is his mom. Talk about BPD. I have referred DD to BPDfamily board for dealing with MIL. We will see what happens, but if $$ goes to MIL, then less will go to DD, we can use the $500/mo she gets from rent.

Oh well, at least that is not MY problem, and really isn't my DD but she is a rescuer-and always has been. Has always wanted to help people out.