A very peaceful night. Very contented for all. Including the cat, although she did wonder why we were eating on the bed! I was starving before I left work. So when I texted DH to say I was on bus home, I said how about a picnic on the bed? I was half teasing. But he took me seriously, cut up some of the ham and some apples (also had happy cow cheese and some crackers ready just in case) and we fed each other. And talked about relationships. Saturday we had drawn what our version of what our relationships would look like and that was a revelation to me, my version is to circles overlapping. His is a circle for each of us inside a larger circle. That larger circle is 3 dimensional and is the relationship itself. We each have to give to it from our own cirles, if one is giving too much-that is when the other starts feeling suffocated. Almost like too much CO2! He understood!! We talked a bit and relaxed.

A couple of hours later, we had grilled ham and cheese sandwiches for supper and then put on Mary Poppins to watch. He had seen an ad on tv and mentioned not seeing for awhile, our normal show was a rerun. Then it was calling dgd-she had texted 'miss you' which was not normal. And then she called dh cell phone, but he didn't pick up and lost the call. She was fine, just lonely-parents out looking at cars and she was bored. She's going to be 12. Rather her call us when shes bored than do one of the million of other things she can do to get in trouble.

Dh has to test his sugar right before breakfast, 2 hours after each meal. The first test was 165, and some have gotten into the 300s. I know too high. I have tried to tell him-limit carb, higher protein etc.- Atkins style. He ignored me, after all, I don't know. Then we ate Easter Dinner, including a store bought dessert=tiramisu inspired cake-cream topped and filled coffee syrup, pound cake. His blood sugar yesterday morning was 150 which is acceptable for his weight and type of diabetes-type 2. He went, "Oh, guess you were right." Ah, yeah, diabetics can use this diet very well as long as they eat their vegetables!!!! And he is realizing that he has to eat protein at every meal!! It has been like pounding my head against a brick wall! LOL!!! I do love him!

We are making plans to go out this weekend. Thursday is my birthday, I am working, but Saturday night i would love to get all dressed up and go out on the town. Since his wheel chair is out of service, cab would be the best way to go. I have a lovely dress I haven't worn yet. Seagreen, vaguely 50's retro with a bolero, high waist, wide skirt,and a sweetheart neckline. I just need to carefully iron it. I jewlery I can wear with it.

TT made a good point yesterday-well several, but the one I am going to address is the 'happy times'. I don't talk about those much, and that is my fault. I gloss over those. And that is a fault I have had since childhood. I tend to carry hurts longer. Thanks, TT-I will look for the happy as well as the not so happy!

I had a surprise in the mail yesterday! A woman from my church sent me a journal for my birthday. Now, this seems funny but the reason she did this is because of my last name-comes from the French version of sejourn and this journal had the word on it. It was completely unexpected and I think I have met this woman 1 time. I definately must write a thank you. (not my best feature!)