Ok I know what I heard yesterday morning. I am not going crazy. Yesterday afternoon, during cuddle time, while we were cozy, I brought up how I was feeling hurt by what he said. That he used the fact that he bought me things as the reason he didn't pay bills. I told him flat out, pay all bills first. B answered that he wasn't meaning that buying me things was the reason he didn't pay bills, he was talking about him paying for the Art night and then me getting sick. He corrolated my getting sick with his purchases of things/excursions! I told him that isn't what he said. He apologized for the confusion. I told him that either way the corrolation made as much sense as me saying that everytime we made love he has a pain (which does happen-but he has pain anyway) and that it was hurtful and unfair. He agreed that it was not fair. He stated that my behavior reminded him of one of his aunts and he just reacted. I told him, that next time he is reminded of 'his aunt' close his eyes, take a deep breath and remind himself of who he is married to. Then I gave him a kiss. He got the whole message. I wasn't buying all of what he told me and he knew it. Talk about trying to twist the story. I could see his mind trying to get out of it. When your faces are really close, it is hard to hide reactions!

Otherwise, night was calm. I am not reacting quite so strongly to his shenanigans. Still aggravating, Still will show up here just to get it out of my system which helps me stay healthier.

Today I have two projects to work on-staff notes from a meeting from yesterday, and a mission critical supply list for the next quarter. And that is it. Boring.