I hit a wrong key and deleted it all before.

It started out great. We ate lunch-steak sandwiches and lemonade. B mentioned that he had no idea what to get me besides clothes. He had been online ordering for me. I gave him the name of a few stores and ideas. Then we split up.

I wandered into stores, and came to realize that malls are really set up for women to shop for women. There were a couple of men's stores, but not for BIG men and if a simple scarf was $100 on sale, hmm, not the place for me to shop.

Anyway, I shopped at Godiva's chocolates. Picked up B a chef Teddy bear with a chocolate bar and a small box of chocolates. Then to the "Perfumary-cologne-one he likes and a lighter scent that I like-a real big bottle (pricey, but worth it!). So far, I hadn't touched the bank card. I am saving those funds for the real big purchase I am planning.

And I must have had a "S" on my forhead. I walked by a kiosk with that was working straight irons. Now, my hair is curly and frizzes easily. I don't know how he did it, but the sales man hooked me- and before you could say 'straigtening iron' I was in the chair, my braids undone and my hair half straightened. And no burns, and I was able to handle it. I called B-I loved how my hair was coming out. Even my short hairs were coming unfrizzed and nice and shiny! It looked better than my $200 chemical straightening I had done 2 years ago. So I know this gift. B seemed ok with it. Operative word 'seemed'. (hair was still straight this morning except where my cpap mask had marked it-so it is better than the chemical. I can also make curls with the iron!)

Anyway, we separated. I went to another mens store and found a tie that worked perfectly. I am so tired of his ties one each: black, red, white and cream. I got a paisley print that is black background with purple and cream and several other colors. A little more modern. Then I hunted up Radio Shack. I had a little trouble finding it. But I finally succeeded. Choice between two cameras, same price. One was similiar to all of those that he keeps loosing. The other has a few more bells and whistles. And it was the same price. That's the one I want I told the sales person. Was the store manager. He had employee go to the back. We were laughing and joking, employee came back-none left-take the floor model-we only put it out yesterday. Ok, now we need the card-how much? Not the cheapest- a good one, and a case cause this camera is not getting lost! Then I go to check out. The bank card with the $$ is declined twice. I call B, can't figure out why. So he tells me to use the other card. It's declined. I panic. Ok, I count my cash. We use the last of my cash to pay most of the camera and $15 on the debit card. I am almost in tears by this time. Good thing I hadn't used the money or deposited it.

I found B. He is upset about the iron. We talked and I told him how I viewed the find, he had said that he didn't have any ideas. He told me that the shopping expedition was 'ruined' because part of the joy is the hiding from each other and the keeping of secrets. I told him I had not looked at it from that point, and apologized. Then I told him about having to use my cash. He got upset about that. Said he would have to find out why, he was thinking it was the kiosk sales that we got ripped off. He called the banks-no the accounts were locked because of "sudden increase in activity-possible fraud/theft".

Ok, I think everything is ok. We are going home. I am exhausted. It is going on 6pm. My legs are killing me. B has 1 more thing to look for-gift for DD family Playstation 3. So one more stop, and no go. We head home, he has to get off at an earlier stop because of elevator stoppage, and I head off by myself.

I get home, double check my reciepts and see how I used all my money on him. Hide his gifts and he comes home. We talk, and he starts all over about the iron. We talk more and he seems to be ok again so we decide to order out. I can barely walk and he's not much better.

I am sitting in the living room, and he starts on again!! And links it to something altogether different. This goes on for 45 minutes. I tell him that he is linking two different topics, he doesn't see it. I am not upset, just confused. Then he links it to the statement I made 2 months ago. That I am not the girl he married. I told him that the problem is I am exactly the girl he married, He just doesn't remember her. He kept going off. We finally ordered something to eat. But it was non-stop. Then it was that he was 'afraid' to talk to me. Hm, afraid because I answer back now. I argue against his point. He did make a statement, "we use to both enjoy doing this. But now you say you don't enjoy it, so we don't do it." I answered,"If one partner starts to say they don't enjoy it, then how can the couple enjoy it?" Never did get an answer!

This morning, everything I said was an attack. He was afraid of everything. Oh, well, it will pass. And I know I am getting something that I will truly enjoy for Christmas. Not just something he will enjoy on me. (I have an idea of one of the Christmas gifts he ordered from his hints. He has to tell!)

Oh, and he is saying that I am owed money from the general fund since the bank card didn't work right. At first I said no, but I am changing my mind. In case you get the wrong idea, B has been ordering gift online for me and has spent more than the agreed amount there. I don't have that option, and I don't want that option. He has credit cards to the Women's clothing companies that I like. And they just raised his credit limit. I tell him that I don't need more clothes, however I do like clothes as much as the next woman.