Why is it that a long weekend is never long enough? B and I took it easy. My body didn't let me do too much since that bug was still there very much. We did some shopping on Saturday and that wiped me out. Groceries, scripts, and needed items were it. 3 hours later going home felt like I had been walking forever. Got home and collapesed on the bed for two hour nap. So did B. His wheelchair is in the shop-so he was using the canes. Good exercise, but tiring. Sunday just couldn't get going, same with yesterday. Not even reading or crocheting much. B did some laundry, me, I rested. Then this morning, I woke up before alarm went off. And felt rested. Even though I didn't fall asleep until after eleven and alarm goes off at 4:30. We watched Star Trek movie, the one where Picard had been cloned. I can't remember the name of it.

I talked to my manager this morning. Careful wording, honesty, discussion. There is no pending action at this time. If my unplanned leave usage discontinues, I will be fine. And I will be. Step by step. Planned vacation is ok. (like September). It is this 2 and 3 days out sick that is doing me no good.

So, I am not going to take the early retirement. And there was now subtle push to take it now. Like there would be if there was a push to 'get rid' of chaf. There is one difference between working for a big corporation and working a government agency-there are protections in place. And this time is different. Within me.

The same strengths that I have been building with B, I have been building in me. Those are working. Oh, I am losing weight again, in a good way.