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It has been coming for a long time. B knows it, I think, that my feelings probably are not going to change.

We didn't go to Church today. I had stomach problems start acting up yesterday, and I am still not the best today. Trying to force a feeling does not work. I try to do the homework the MC gave us, but no heart in it at all. Oh well, 4 months to save money to strike out on my own. 4 months 4 B to get use to the idea of it all, if he ever will.

You know, TT mentioned that B did not really know how to feel romantic love just how to "act it out" for show. And I realized that is all he ever did. All the gifts he bought were met with "what did they say at work?" Or "Did you tell them at work that your husband ....?" So it has to be about him, not for me. Even as he is saying it is for me. It is too late to change my feelings, and it is so sad.

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Previous Entry :: Next Entry Read/Post Comments (8) Share on Facebook		2012-04-08 2:46 PM Feeling Done It has been coming for a long time. B knows it, I think, that my feelings probably are not going to change. We didn't go to Church today. I had stomach problems start acting up yesterday, and I am still not the best today. Trying to force a feeling does not work. I try to do the homework the MC gave us, but no heart in it at all. Oh well, 4 months to save money to strike out on my own. 4 months 4 B to get use to the idea of it all, if he ever will. You know, TT mentioned that B did not really know how to feel romantic love just how to "act it out" for show. And I realized that is all he ever did. All the gifts he bought were met with "what did they say at work?" Or "Did you tell them at work that your husband ....?" So it has to be about him, not for me. Even as he is saying it is for me. It is too late to change my feelings, and it is so sad. Read/Post Comments (8) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top