Yesterday evening was my PT appointment. I had a script for him to work on the issue of my migraine. First we go through the normal stuff, and even with a week off, I don't have a problem. There wasn't even any muscle burn! Then he has me lay down on my back with my neck over an open area. My head is well supported. And he rubs one side then the other. The right side is where everything is tight in my neck. He talks to me as he's doing this and I tell him about the bus accident. He said I probably had a form of whiplash. Even though there was no pain then, internally stuff got messed up and pressure has been put on nerves etc since then. He did tell me that I would probably get a migraine from what he was doing, but he needed to get a baseline. (Yup, relativel
minor, but enough to stay home)

Add on the extra stresses, and no wonder my migraines have been through the roof.

Last night B and I had a serious talk. He is out of the bedroom. I told him that I have had serious problems doing any of the homework. And that that my feelings aren't changing. I will have to tell the MC this. He wants to work on the marriage, he sees improvements he has done. So have I, but, too late. That's the problem. Last night I had a decent sleep. Pain med may have helped. I was trying to avoid migraine-didn't work.

Part of me wishes B would get angry. I think that would be easier to deal with than the crying. But that's what I have to deal with.

We did to about why he left the table when the missionaries where here. He first said that when he heard the story I told them, it crossed his mind what else has she hidden from me? When we at the MC's and he heard something new, the same thing happened. But he couldn't leave. He then starts thinking of when we could've talked about this before. Then he comes back to the conversation. So, basically, first I am deceitful. Even if there was never a reason to discuss someting before. Even if it something that I have just realized. He said, "don't you do the same thing?" I said no. Depending on what it is, I put myself in his place and try to feel what he felt then and is feeling now. I don't view finding out something new as a something that was hidden. This is something for MC! AND SOMETHING that will be problem for us.