It's 8:23am on Saturday, April 14th. Once again, I couldn't sleep-in...

I am trying to think of an analogy to describe my emotion today (since everyday brings an interesting new emotion), and nothing seems to fit just right...well, let me try one of the weaker ones...

I feel like I have a list of groceries to get at the store, that I need to make a big dinner. But while I am shopping at the store, I am simply concentrating on crossing items off the list, and not getting the ingrediants for the dinner...My mind has chosen not to recognize the dinner as my reason for shopping at the store, but rather the execution of the task of shopping.

I hope that makes sense to someone but me.

The frustarting thing, is that I am aware that my mind is doing this. I know the major flaws in allowing myself to not see the reason at the end of the task...the most problematic of course being that my grocery list was complete to begin with. Since I am only concentrating on the task of crossing items off a list, I won't know until I get home that I may have forgotten to write down some ingrediants...

Not surprisingly, I am getting hungry all of the sudden...

Well, for anyone who understood that, please send me an email and remind me what I was trying to say please.

So it's now 16 days until the big move, and I haven't been thinking about what happens when I get there at all. I really should be studying Japanese, but it isn't on the list, and seems a bit pointless because my mind is obviously in denial that I am moving.

Tonight is Kenny's birthday party (Jenn's boyfriend), and I know Jenn is a bit stressed about it because she came home from work early yesterday because she wasn't feeling well...being sick sucks. Also, my friend John will be performing his third stand-up act tonight at 7:30pm, just as Kenny, Jenn and friends will be sitting down to a birthday dinner. Once my girlfriend Sharon and I watch Johnny perform, then were all gonna fly over to Glendale and meet Jenn, Kenny and friends for some birthday bowling. After that, everyone heading back to Jenn's place for "hanging out". Unfortunately, that last destination requires that I spend a good part of today cleaning the place.

Now it is 9:07am, and Kenny is up and wathcing Better Off Dead, which we have decided is one of the best movies of all time. For those of you that truly appreciate the fine feature film, you might enjoy the interesting fact that Kenny just shared with me. Apparently, the "two dollars" kid went to USC (as did Kenny), and is quite bitter about the constant heckling he gets about his famous line... Despite the fact that I have seen this movie in excess of 25 times, I am drawn to it, and worry that after I finish this journal I will sit through the ending one more time... must resist urge to waste life in front of television...

Anyway, I seem to be blissfully ignorant today, not really worried about the impending move. Let's hope this ignorance thing keeps going...

wow, what's that shiny thing, gotta go...