Well, the visa application is in... I am still frustrated that I do not know Japanese yet... have started to look into taking Japanese classes... getting worried about money (in relation to taking Japanese classes)... have many interviews this week... it is not a problem finding work here... still trying to decide where to start a new company... still trying to decide what the company should be... need to keep focus on starting... hit comforting/depressing benchmark in Japan - Starbucks employees are starting to remember "my drink"... in a way it makes me feel like I'm home, but we all know that it just means I go there too much...

Wow... just had to get that out, and use as many ... as possible.

I don't really feel like writing much lately. I kind of feel like I have been waiting in the concession stand line at the movie theater, I finally get to the front, and now I cannot decide what I want... I know, I know... really weak analogy, but you get the idea.

Once again, I am putting more pressure on myself than anyone. I am trying to research different ideas that I have, but I am not satisfied unless I can see serious profit potential or security from the initial investment within the first 6 to 8 months.

It is a bit obsessive considering that most companies don't turn a profit for three years, but working at Autonomy has taught me the incredible value of the enormous profit margin...
I am looking for the security of knowing that I could become clinically insane and have my entire staff hate me, but still turn a profit at whatever I am doing... that's the AMERICAN dream!

Selfishly, I not only want a high-profit company, but also a fun company to own and operate... I know, I know... and once again, I am frustrated that I haven't figured it out yet...

SO that's why I feel like I am treading water recently... I am applying for blah jobs just to get some money to stop myself from worrying... but I know that no matter what job(s) I take, I will not be happy until I am working for myself... I am trying to keep an open mind though.

For now, I am just living. I really hate the feeling of waiting to get tired so I can wait to get-up, and wait until I have a job, so I can wait to get an idea I like, so I can get excited about the future, the possibilities and all that goes with it.

Oh, before I forget... anyone who has any video tapes to send me... ABOUT ANYTHING, I would really appreciate it... I have been watching the same Friends episodes over and over again because Ryo doesn't have cable and I cannot understand Japanese enough to watch any tv. Since he loves friends, we have the first two seasons on tape, but that is it! Really, ANYTHING, will be better than my compulsive boredom eating which is really starting to make me fat.

Here's how you do it... the US post office has this handy envelope called Global Express that should fit two VHS tapes easily. The beauty part is, that it only costs $9.00 to ship the envelope to Japan, and I will get it within 3 days... Yipee!!! For those of you that lost it, here's my address once again...

me
5-13-15 Kinuta 5 Bankan #202
Kinuta, Setagayaku
Tokyo, JAPAN 157-0073

Thanks in advance!

Also, as I have mentioned in my previous email, it is my sister Jenn's Birthday today (Wednesday, the 29th), so those of you that know her, please call her or email her to say Happy Birthday!

Actually, Jenn mentioned to me that what she really wants for her birthday is for everyone to send videos to me in Japan... she really is sweet like that! So you don't need to buy Jenn anything, just get over to the post office is you want her to be happy...

Well, writing this journal has definately made me a bit happier... just thinking of the smirks on the faces of my friends and family as they read my smart-ass commentary makes me feel almost they they are here with me... I really miss everyone, and hope that I can figure out a way to see you all again real soon!

I guess I'll end on that good note! Thanks for the inspiration! (remember Jenn wants videos to be sent to the above address, she does not want expensive gifts sent to her... you want her to be happy don't you??? DON'T YOU????)