As my mother has just pointed out to me, I have not written at all in September... sorry. However, since I am one of the few people who has a journal, but does not have a computer at home, I feel as though I should be given some slack with regards to the frequency of my journal entries... just to get to this internet cafe costs me, $2.70 one way on the train, plus $3.00 per hour for the computer... so to just check my email costs me $8.40...

My sister Jennifer however, is on her computer all the time, and like me, she also has not written in her journal in September...

But perhaps the biggest mystery, is why my mother does not have a journal of her own??? Knowing her son has to spend so much money to call her to find-out how she is doing, you would think she would be happy to start a journal of her own, but alas, no... if I had a nickle for each time I had to cry myself to sleep not knowing how she was... well, I'd have quite a few more nickles...

Enough about that though... now for rambling about me...

I have been losing much focus lately, but feel as though I am still hanging-on (just fingertips at this point) to what I should be really concerned with...

Society, or rather the idea of normalcy, is really taking its toll recently. I find myself always fluctuating about being concerned with money, being alone, or just fitting-in to a new culture... however, all of those things have more to do with societal expectations of myself than they do with my actual happiness...

== Just got a phone call from another exemployee of the company I was fired from, and so many people have been fired recently, that there is talk of organizing a class-action suit against them... now that we are all unemployeed it sounds like a good idea...

Anyway, I have to go meet with a few of these folks now, so I cannot continue at this time... I will finish these thoughts soon though as I feel I am close to some more major decisions about my future...

Hope all is well back in the US... I miss all of you!