I had my Spice of Life Party last night which went really good! We had so much fun! Everybody got alot of stuff I was so excited! I got $97 worth of stuff for $17 cause I hosted it. AWESOME!! But I have to wait to get some of my stuff :( but its okay I will survive! Meg Lins and I made jello shots and pink penis cakes! YUM! And Linsey's Grandma made pizza -- which everyone loved and they were awesome! It was so perfect, Lins shaved chocolate to put on the balls on the cake! It was great!

Then after all that I had a regular party, while it wasn't the best party that I have had, it was fun. A lot of people I haven't gotten to see in a long time were here so I was happy! Tina got to come to both parties! I was so excited that she got to be here for them! And a bunch of the guys from high school that I haven't seen for awhile were here. My friend Nick form Clarion came up and some of his friends. They got lost. They all blamed Nick. HAHAHA. I feel kinda bad cause I was all fucked up whenever they were here, but oh well I guess. OH OH OH and Missy got to come too! I was super excited about that. It was nice getting to just hang out with her and talk today since I haven't got to do that in a while. Plus, she understands about IT. I didn't get to talk to Friend and Lins very much, but I was running around. I will have to call them later and make sure that they had fun. Lins had to go to work today, that sucks! I think Meg had to work too. I felt bad. OH and I got to meet Katie's boyfriend, who I really like. I AM SO HAPPY FOR HER! That's all that I have wanted for her for sooo long! And Matt really seems great so I am glad.

I would like to take this enter paragraph to mention that Jason is incredibley hot. And I would like to have lots of sex with him. And that's all I have to say about that.

(of course I probably never will and never will try cause I'm a big baby like that. but thats besides the point)

AND I have to add that Justin was msging me last night asking about Tim and Nick. I thought he was talking about my friend Nick at first not his friend. I was confused, and fucked up. I am not really sure what I said to him cause I was FUCKED UP. But I am really not worried about it. I know I told him that I didn't remember saying all that stuff to Tim, but I don't believe Tim would lie about it. He said something to the effect that he didn't believe me. I just told him why would I lie, I have nothing to lose. Which he agreed was a good point. YEAH I KNOW, I SAID IT! Part of me wants to scream at him and part of me wants to never speak to him or about him ever again and part of me wants him to hold me and tell me everythings okay. I hate that.

ANYWAYS. My party was fun. I have the best friends in the entire world. And I hope everyone had fun. I'm going back to bed. HAHAHAHA


"I live for the nights I'll never remember with friends I'll never forget."