Would you recognize my face if I walked into Heaven? So many years have past. How have I been? Without you? It's been so long. I grew up fine. I ran track, just like you always said I would -cross country too. Yeah, I placed a few. Always thought of you. Did alright in school. Went to prom, looked pretty and smiled. Fought with friends and reconciled. Graduated and then went to college and started again. Mom joined you. Dad wasn't doing so good. But we pulled together, did what we could. The family has started to grow -nieces, nephews and a soon to be step family too, but there is still a spot, a big hole where you go.

Would you recognize me now? Would I have made you proud? I don't have an inside voice yet, I still talk too loud. My hair's still long but I keep my nails trimmed nice. I have less dirt smudges on my cheeks and more make-up on my eyes. I haven't grown much, I'm still the same size. But I just don't know, would you recognize me? If I make it to Heaven?

I'm trying hard to do good, but sometimes I slip up. I like sex too much, and I've been known to smoke and tip the cup. I try to forgive and forget and pray for my enemies.

I think about you. It's been so long. I'm afraid you won't recognize me. I'd go back, if I could. I want you to know me, when you see, but its hard because I don't remember who I used to be.

-kln-

Did you think it was easy to die? Did you think you could just pick up the gun and say good-bye? Did you think it was easy to die?