My life in art

"I am passing this on to you because it definitely worked for me and we all could use more calm in our lives. By following the simple advice I heard on a Dr. Phil show, I have finally found inner peace. Dr. Phil proclaimed the way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started. So I looked around my house to see things I started and hadn't finished; and, before leaving the house this morning I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of White Zinfandel, a bottle of Baileys, a bottle of Kahlua, a package of Oreos, the remainder of both Prozac and Valium prescriptions, the rest of the Cheesecake, some Saltines and a box of Chocolates. You have no idea how freaking good I feel. Please pass this on to those you feel are in need of inner peace." - Joe

So... I got back from grandma's mentally trashed. That tanned in-shape radiant boy passed out. He doesn't exist anymore. If you looked at me right now you would see some pale decadent semi-adult out of shape human being. You would laugh - or cry.

Once more I allowed my life to pass through me and get out of control. I'm lost in school again and I lost control of my body health. If last week I could do spinning for the full 50 minutes with great disposition, now I wouldn't even make half of it. I am completely out of money and demotivated.

But how did things get that far again? It must be because I suck at this thing called life. I KNOW I shouldn't have let the subjects cumulate and that I shouldn't have skipped tests and exams, but I still did all that. I should have done more, thought less. Brian once told me to "just be". And to stop thinking, "just wake up and go". Knowledge is in my hands. It's only two months until I graduate and get rid of high school. Forever. And life goes on! I can't get stuck in this. Not now. I can't leave anything unfinished. Enough of unfinished things in my life.

I have to finally finish this cursed high school and get my intermediate school degree. I am already 18 and my plans will take a while to become concrete, and I CANNOT ALLOW ANY MORE DELAYS.

I have to put everything in track again.
I refuse to be a victim.
I refuse to be a victim.




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