Please, Please, Please, let me get what I want
The Smiths

Good times for a change
See, the luck I’ve had
Can make a good man
Turn bad

So please please please
Let me, let me, let me
Let me get what I want
This time

Haven’t had a dream in a long time
See, the life I’ve had
Can make a good man bad

So for once in my life
Let me get what I want
Lord knows, it would be the first time
Lord knows, it would be the first time

It's been a couple of weeks since I've started working and trying to get used to my time. I think it's been long enough for me to get used to it, and stop skipping classes in the morning. It is VERY hard for me to fight my sloth and wake up to go to my crappy school that ends this month and see all those pathetic people trying to be cool. I have missed some exams and I will have to pay to do them in another time, but I still have a high chance of being approved. I only have to start studying for the subjects now, using my free time at work. Yesterday I paid for my books, and tomorrow I will be going to school so I can copy the subjects I lost from my friend.

I have been losing concentration at work, and that should stop now. My boss is very hard to deal with, and I have been doing some things wrong, but that won't last long, because from now on I will pay more attention to things. I know there are some very wrong things that I do, and I should pay enough attention to these mistakes so they won't cause my demission. Yup, I should start fixing these things. Now.

My family is still against my work, just because I get home really late and I've been neglecting school. I cannot believe that really soon I will hopefully be graduating from high school and then I will start a whole new episode of my life.

The people I meet at work are still nice, and I help them do things that are forbidden at the hostel so they can have a good time. The couple from Denmark gave me a lot of things so I could give the poor people, but there was a very nice jacket that I'll actually keep to myself. Last night, Simon, this english guy, told me that I was the one who made that hostel interesting, because I'm the man. Lol. Sounds silly, but that kinda made my day, and I cannot risk losing this job, so I've got to be careful. With everything. With every wrong thing.

Yesterday I paid all my debts, and now I'm debt free. School , school books, cellphone, my mother, my friend... Now I'll wait until I save some money and then I'll make a change in my looks. A new haircut, maybe some highlights... I don't know.

I start this day free of debts and worried about some bad things I do at work - but I will fix them now and be careful so I won't leave work at midnight worried about these things. The life I've had taught me much, but maybe not enough for real life. This life I've had can make a good man turn bad.. easily.