7am. Diego wakes me up so I can take him to the subway station and borrow him 60 bucks. Done that and back home, 40mg of fluoxetine. Orange juice. And fish for lunch (lunch?). I got a call from the guy offering me a job. I was supposed to go meet him at 2:30pm. But I fell asleep listening to Phil Collins. Frustrated, I emailed and said that tomorrow I will be there by that time. I hope he reads the e-mail.

And now sitting here with my last Parliament I have memories of a strange weekend. On Friday this guy I met online from São Paulo said he wanted to come over to see me so since my mother is at the beach house again I let him come. And later on I decide to go out with Renato and Daniel, because they are nice, but we don't know where to go so we stay around Renato's place for a while and later on we take a taxi to the Lord Jim pub. It was incredibly fun being there with them both but it was kinda expensive in the end, but since I already paid my most needed bills, whatever. I drank far too much at Lord Jim. I got sick. I threw up on the streets. I was out of myself and started to cry. For some reason. I think this reason was Renato. Yes, not Philipe anymore. Renato. So I sit by his couch and cry like a little girl and Daniel goes to the bathroom, Renato sits by my side and kiss me. Intensively. His dick was incredibly hard. And I had just thrown up. So Daniel comes out of the bathroom, we stop making out, I throw up once more, then me and Daniel sleep together, SLEEP ONLY. I was supposed to be at the bus station to pick Diego up at 7 but I only woke up at 10 so he called me and I told him to take a taxi to my place and when I get there he was already waiting for me for like what, 4 or 5 hours. He wasn't pretty but not ugly either and he was sweet as sugar so we talked a little, ate and fucked.

Then we talked, he was nice, idiotic sometimes, but mostly nice. Moby was going to play here. I love Moby. I wanted to go to Moby's concert. But Diego had no money and I didn't want to borrow him more. So I decided to make a little pre party here, bought a lot of beer and vodka and invited Isabela and Guilherme along with Priscilla and Daniel so we stayed here for a while drinking, smoking weed and laughing all the time. So it was nice. Me and Diego fucked again and he slept earlier than me so I went online to my Earth:2025 account and I'm doing pretty good I think, I am always ranked around 200 but growing strong.

Now Philipe messaged me on MSN yelling at me for having gone out with his boyfriend and Daniel says it's better if I don't call Renato anymore. I mean, it's the least I could do, to call Renato and apologize for letting me sleep in his house and being sick at the end of the night. But that stupid Daniel does not want to give me his phone number and Renato didn't call, so who cares. Now, I really think I will not see any of them for a long time, which is a bad thing because I liked them.

And this is how my weekend ends. Me sitting here in this cold day drinking a beer and enjoying my last cigarette before I go clean the completely dirty house before mommy comes home and I go out for a pack of cigarettes.

Typical.