ugh. i don't understand. sometimes things suck so much that you wonder how they can amass that much suckiness.

take ramsey, for instance.

after living in the city for 6 weeks i realized you don't need a flatscreen tv, or any tv at all, for that matter. you don't need a huge stereo or a massive house or a maid or a refrigerator that talks to you. i was happy in my closet-sized dorm room. and then i come back here, where we're supposed to have it all, and we have nothing.

so i ask myself. what exactly is there to DO in ramsey? oh yes, all the cool kids go out and drink everynight and smoke weed. they all have parties where everyone makes out with each other and herpes is transmitted. then people puke and maybe the cops are called or something.

i used to be jealous of these people. then i had a chance to have a life in the city and realized how much drinking sucks. first there was the hassle of getting the alcohol. once that was done, we had to sneak it in the dorm. and then we proceeded to drink it, being careful to not be so loud as to evoke a noise complaint and managing not to spill beer everywhere or to let anyone get so drunk so they would puke. lest we forget the awful taste or having to carefully dispose of the bottles, and what about the horrible nagging feeling of wanting to throw up so many hours later. what a fucking pain in my ass.

once you rule out the parties, there's really not much. you could go see a shitty movie, or you could sit at a smoke filled diner and order some greasy food while talking about memories past with your friends. you could drive around in circles until you run out of gas, or you could chill at your friend's house and play x box and eat some stale cheese puffs that his mom bought 2 weeks ago.

that about does it. i'm going to bed.