let em complain. let em bitch. let em gripe.

i am detaching with love. (haven't i heard that somewhere before???)

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so my brother is still here. isn't it going on two months now, you ask??? and wasn't it supposed to be just a week or two til he could get an apartment and a job lined up???

he is working now. finally. he started a temp job on monday. it should last a month or two.

"then what are ya gonna do???'

"i dunno - i'll look for something else if they don't hire me on permanent. (btw, it's really hurting my back. can i have another pain pill???)"

and yes, he sat on his ass for at least 6 weeks while he could've been working somewhere making some money to secure housing.

and no, i didn't bring this up again because when it was mentioned before, he got extrememly po'd.

i don't do conflict well.

i know, it's my fault. i am co-dependent, passive/aggressive, and generally a doormat.

my son is still here too, but c'mon, he's my son.

and my mother informed me a couple days ago that when she comes to town this summer, she's not staying with her bitchy friend that she hates (???...whatever), she will need to stay with me, especially since she won't have a car to go back and forth to her dr appointments and i can take her.

excuse me??? say again???

i don't think so.

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so my son is upset, maybe dropping out of college because he has to ride the bus to get there. i told him when he moved back in that that would be the arrangement and he agreed. i told him that we were not going to be ferrying his ass back and forth. that he had made this committment and that he had to stand by it.

another reason why i didn't sign the loan papers to the tune of $11,200.

and my brother is pissed because he has to go outside to smoke and it's cold. says his lungs can't take the cold.

well, maybe your lungs can't take the smoke???

and no, you can't smoke in the hallways here either. there's a rule. the granny who lives upstairs got caught doing it last year and got a warning, if not a fine. it's a condominium unit - not everyone wants your smoke wafting into their units dud. (yes, i meant dud, not dude.) (because he is)

to which he replied "i can't get no fucking peace around here"

sorry bout your luck. i'm sure they'll be more understanding at the ymca or the salvation army.

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really people, is it just me??? am i a complete bitch or what??? please, somebody tell me i'm not completely and totally over the edge here. what is the deal??? i do not understand this way of thinking from these people. i really don't. really. i don't. at all.

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but they can bitch, gripe, complain, fuss all they want.

i am detaching with love...

xoxo