i had a little melt down last night, a little pity party.

waaaahhhhhhhhhhh...or, as a friend recently told me, go call 1-800-fucking waaahhhhhhhhhh!!!

funny, that friend.

anyhoo, better today. actually a wonderful day and evening. lots to be said for keeping busy, and busy doing important and productive things.

worked, spend time with my son outside on the patio at the coffee house under a cloudless blue sky, no breeze, and it was a perfect day weather wise. we talked of life and love and war and all those important things that make philosophers scratch their heads. he's considering becoming a nomad, hitchhiking from here to ??? i told him, if it's something he's really considering doing, he'd best get to it while he's young and unattached in any way.

i'd hate to see him go, but the adventures he'd have!!! mebbe i'd be more jealous than anything...

picked up the baby girl at school and we all came home. i turned on the tv to the digital music channels and started dancing, altho neither kiddo would join in until sir mix a lot came on singing "baby got back" and then, of course, EVERYBODY wanted to dance!!!

(BG scored a perfect score on her statewide math accountability test. that just doesn't happen from what i understand. the kid is amazing. yeah, i know, she's mine. so what??? ha!!)

so we did, and it was fun and crazy and a release for all of us. i made a sandwich for the baby girl, my baby boy left with a friend, and BG and i went to visit my dad for a bit. i dropped her back off at home to finish homework, went to the grocery, and have been sitting here for almost 2 hours trying to get sleepy enough to go to bed.

i got caught up on a little correspondence tonight - sorry it wasn't more, friends - but i'll try to do more again tomorrow.

i have a sinus infection now. that's fun. ok, not!!! so i counted, and i think i'm up to taking 13 or 14 pills a day now for whatever...crazy pill, sleeping pill, leg pill(s) sometimes, altho with cooler weather that's better, tummy pills, and now i'm taking an antibiotic 3 times a day for the tooth abcess and a different antibiotic 4 times a day for the sinus infection.

ok, i just counted. it's 15 a day.

is there time or room for me to actually eat anything?

ah hell, it's ok. i still feel good. in many ways.

must be all the pills, eh?

having dinner with a friend tomorrow night to talk about life changes and trick or treating (begging for candy) on wednesday, so i don't know when i'll ever get caught up. plus i have work every day. that's good. i need the $$$.

to pay for more drugs, apparently.

*heh*

love ya all, g'nite peeps.