...as my upstairs neighbor thumps across his living room. After a binge of web surfing this morning (broke down and plugged in the modem) I feel more relaxed and in touch with my world - which are not necessarily the real world, but the stuff I care about. Responded to some overdue email, surfed up half.com and bought a dvd, mizu, yaga, da'pens to look at seating charts, sprint to try and minimize my cell phone bill, and of course sluggy. Did not check out netflix surprisingly, mainly because I just got two more dvds in the mail today so there was no need. Ate some granola and mostly non-expired milk. Now as I drink my third cup of coffee, I sigh a breath of contentment.

*ah*

I'm moderately impressed that I know "writers" and feel that it sort of makes this journal somewhat lacking -- I should justified it more. For what it is worth, I have been pretty frustrated, especially through Oct. 31, not to be able to write. This year's Halloween was depressingly uneventful. It was hard to pass on my usually candy and pumpkin stuff, but I thought it wise to bypass the candy and I ran out of time before I could get a pumpkin. I had swimming anyway. Actually being active with friends made not celebrating better. Hopefully next year I will not have to worry about candy.

I was in the body shop at the beginning of my trip to FL a few weekends ago, and found an old perfume that I had worn while traveling in Europe - white musk. I bought a sample of it and have been pleasantly reminded of the beginning of an adventure. It was an unexpected moment of nostalgia.

Also found out last week that one of my childhood friends is expecting. Something of a surprise, and I'm not sure how I feel about it. Its one of those "I hope they know what they are doing" kind of things. It's not really my place to comment, since I've been out of touch with her for over 2 years. One of the people my family asks about that I have no answer for.

Found out last night that I did not get the corporate identity contract. Since it was going to throw a wrench in my current schemes anyway, maybe it is for the best. (just a smidge of sour grapes) God has definitely opened a number of doors, and slammed an equal amount as well over the last month or so. I go to discuss some web husbandry at zetaweb.com Monday.

A quick stomping through the leaves yesterday has brought me into accordance with the season. I was feeling kind of bummed out since I got back from FL. I think due to traveling over a time zone during daylight savings. I came back and found I worked in darkness. It also rained and flurried this week too, not adding to my festiveness.

Now the future - After this evening's concert with the philharmonic, I plan to not plan. To try to be still. To concentrate on not focusing.

Music:
Over the Rhine - Films for Radio
Gershwin - Rhapsody in Blue
Bernstein - West Side Story
Barber - Adagio for Strings