I will pick a layout and color for this journal. And someday I might actually start writing in it on a regular basis too! *lmao* Indecisive as always.

Two weeks from this moment I will be in some club in Columbus, OH most likely running around talking to people and listening to some subpar opening band. I can't wait!

I've needed a vacation for some time now. Not sure that two weeks into a new semester of school is really the best time, but I have no choice, so there it is.

I've spent the last few days trying to make sure that everyone will have a good time on the tour, and that meant mending some fences that I wasn't sure I was ready to repair. It needed to be done though...because I am so sick of all the drama that has been going on lately. It's just not good for anyone. Now trust me, I play into it, I really do. It's all like my own personal soap opera, which is exciting at times. But all that just ends up eating at you after a certain amount of time.

I've always hated to be the bigger person. Seriously. I had to do it my whole life with my stubborn father, and I've just never gotten comfortable with the concept of it. But once again I had it explained to me why it needed to be done.

So I got over myself and I did it. And so far, so good. And not just for me, but for many people and that makes me feel good. Because I do just want people to get along and be happy and enjoy things that should be enjoyed.

I have to admit however that the fact that I have pretty much totally ensured there will be no drama on this tour makes me a bit sad. *lol* I think the sadist in me knows that drama makes for really good stories! And I am a gossip whore even though I fucking hate to admit that. I know it's childish and petty and not particularly attractive. But hey, I am what I am, that's for sure.

So I guess I just have to hope for drama that doesn't involve me directly that I will be free to talk about in excess!

Ryan Adams - "Carolina Rain" <--current song obsession