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2002-11-11 10:51 PM
Poetry is not enough

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Welll... I am feeling a void in my life... not one of those... should I go to church and find god type voids... but probably a lack of intimacy void... One of those-- haven't had a girlfriend in 8 years voids...

On top of that...

I gained 80 or so pounds since 1999 ... although I've maintained at 300 for 2 years
I used to exercise daily... of course... I didn't feel that much better emotionally then... and despite what my friends say... I didn't have much of a dating life then either.

I am thinking... I need to leave the poetry scene altogether... It is a nice thing... but in many ways... I've been too dependent on it for my excuse for a social life.

I mean... I still want to write and perform... but I also want to grow as an artist and as a person...

I have some accolades in life... a Master's Degree in Creative Writing... A car, two cats, a pretty close family... Not to mention a stint with the Flagstaff Slam Team which provided me some adulation and an invitation to read at URBANA... by Mr. Taylor Mali, himself... I mean... those things are all good... and I got selected by Dayvid Figler, Greg Crosby, Deborah Kohen to have a line and my name on a monumental foot bridge in a downtown Las Vegas park...

But at age 30... I am back living at home, no dating life... very little social life... and I am not exercising... or transmogrifying or anything.

Maybe I need some Zen Buddhism or something... some sort of discipline to consume time or anything. I am very self centered. Many people have it much worse than I... so I have no right to feel sorry for myself... or I have every right to.... but what good does it do.

I sure hope this ain't my midlife crisis... cause I am only 30... and I've only had sex with one women in my life...

I wish I had cool lurid things to say in this journal... if you want to read somebody who does... check out Morris Stegosaurus.

Not that his life is all that heavenly compared to mine... but he probably won't whine as much as I do.

http://livejournal.com/users/mstegosaurus

If I messed up on the addresss... just go to the livejournal.com part... and insert the mstegosaurus in the search bar.

Morris is one of the most brilliant poets in the slam circuit today...

and he is five years younger than I... and has an I.Q. five times greater.

Well... Saw Bowling For Columbine this weekend... it was nice to be in a room with 100 other liberals.

All who applauded at the end.

Michael Moore... makes me want to move to Canada.

Oh Canada, Oh Canada, Oh Canada

I once said... that Canada is like America Lite... but in reality... Canada... is America done right.

Sure it ain't perfect... But... damn!

I would like to live in a country and know that no matter how bad I fuck up... I will always have food to eat and my own roof over my head... and fucking surgery when I need it. Even if I have to wait in line.

Ciao!

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