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Andyland

2002-11-30 5:32 AM
If Meat is murder, then send me

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to death row baby!

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Well... It is 4 am... and my websurfin' insomniac self is still wide awake. Today I go out for Thai food with my brother and mother. Last night we ate at Prime in the Bellagio. I had braised ribs. It was simply amazing, and believe it or not... I didn't eat too much.

I still have 67 papers to grade... and I have all day Sunday to do so. I am a deep procrastinator... I get myself in deep trouble... but next semester I am arranging a system where... I don't really have to grade too much... but go over face to face with each student about the pros and cons of their papers.

It means that I won't have to grade... just assess. I will put a grade on the paper... but I will discuss any problem areas with each student.

I am probably going to shift this journal to an academic and personal theme and thus be very earnest and put the sarcasm and slam stuff on a livejournal.

Nearly all the slammers have live journals. Can a writer serve two journals? I think so... I want to challenge myself to be more intellectual... more well read, more academic... without losing my humor and spontaneity...

Currently I am rehearsing
Froggy
Death
Neruda
Testosterone
Mack
and Exam

for the Urbana gig. That should get me in at 17 minutes. If I banter and guffaw... I may be only to do five... but if I skip the chatter... I could do all six. Of course... I may write something new between now and then... also... I may be moved to do Big Hair. I am not sure if I am going to do any extensive touring... but if I make the Vegas Team in 2003... I am sure I will do a little touring with them... I may also do road trips to Flagstaff and Mesa in the next few months.

I thought about going up to the Northwest and doing some gigs... Maybe Keith Haubrich could set me up in Seattle... but I think I may hold out on any major touring until I see what my academic situation is come March or April.

Also, I am relatively unknown. A few people have heard of me... but most havn't, so I may wish to wait until I have sharpened my P.R. skills. I am so introverted and hermitish, that I am not certain, I would want to do all that work. Plus I am not that driven or ambitious. I want to be rich and famous... I just don't want to do any work.

That is why I havn't sent off poems to journals that much. I am a lazy son of a gun.

That is why I am obese. I am too lazy to exercise.

I quit smoking 8 years ago... because I had a girlfriend, and I feared she'd dump me if I continued to smoke... so I quit cold turkey.

Maybe I need a girl now... I'd lose weight and exercise just to keep from losing her.

I am not sure what motivates me. Fear? Rewards?

I keep having bad dreams that are hard to describe... but in essence state that there is a devil, and I am in his grasp... and the only thing that will save me... is to become a fundamentalist christian.

I might as well be a fundamentalist... I don't drink (that much), don't fuck, don't smoke... I mean.. what have I got to lose? Still... I think these dreams are a result of mental illness I suffered when I was 18, and schizophrenic transference from a friend who was a fundamentalist and a paranoid schizo.

Plus the LSD, and the pot, and the depression, and all that shit.

I have a feeling that if God wanted me to serve him... he'd give me a job.

Essentially, he/she did. I am a poet.

and my job is to spread the gospel of Froggy (See archives)

good night world!

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