My Bar/Bri bar review class is coming to a close. This is the last week of it (the final day is on Saturday). Then I go into self study mode and do my PMBR class as well. The bar is in three weeks. Exactly three weeks from now I'll be somewhere in Pasadena sitting down and getting my computer all ready to take the bar. I'm scared. Really, really scared. After two months of bar review it seems as if I have learned nothing in the way of substantive law. Sure, I've learned how the bar wants essays written and the like, but I haven't learned the essential law needed to pass the bar. And I don't know if I have the time to do so. The final two weeks are going to be all about me trying to cram law into my head. I NEED to pass this bar. If I don't, I don't know what I'll do.

Today is more Bar/Bri. We're going over Professional Responsibility. On the bright side, I amjured my PR class last summer and passed the MPRE on the first try. On the down side, I don't really remember too much of it. I hope it won't be a huge problem though because when I had the class last summer I didn't do a lot of work, and yet I still got the highest grade in the class. I don't know why, but everything just seemed like common sense to me. For those not in the legal know, Professional Responsibility is the do's and dont's of lawyering. It's the ethics code (yes, there really is one) that lawyers need to follow if they don't want to get disbarred or face a malpractice suit against them. So, today some video professor will be rehashing PR and I'll be scrambeling away on my laptop taking pages and page of notes and trying not to let my hands cramp up too much. Gah. I just need to keep reminding myself that this will all be over soon enough.

Though this isn't the hardest part of the bar. Taking the bar isn't even the hardest part. The hardest part I think will be the waiting. We take the bar at the end of this month, and we don't get the results back until the end of November. Which, in my opinion, really isn't fair because you need to sign up to take the February bar before you know if you passed the July one or not. I have a feeling that I'll sign up to take it and pay all the fees. If I pass the bar on the first try, that will be the happiest money I ever lost. If not, then I'll be set to go in February. That is, if my parents will cover my taking another bar. I sure as hell can't since I seem to be cursed when it comes to finding a job (yes Rob, I really am an unemployable Yeti). How is it that I can't even get an interview? *sigh* Too much suck.

My day today doesn't look too fun. I have my video lecture during the day, and then when I head home I get to work on essays. When my hubby gets home I then get to try to finish working on putting together our wedding album. That should normally be something fun to do, but it's stressful because it's taking time away from things like studying and sleep. I just wish our photographer could wait for us to turn things in until I'm done with all this bar crap. But things can never be easy for me, can they? I REALLY hate my life right now.

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