Today was my first day of my PMBR bar review class. This class is the one that "helps" us with the multiple choice section of the bar. Today we took a simulated MBE exam (100 multiple choice in the morning from 9am to noon and then 100 mc in the afternoon from 1pm to 4pm). I failed. I got 47% on that. That's way beyond failing. Out of 200 questions I only answered 95 correctly. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I don't think there's any chance in hell of me passing the bar, at least not the first time around. I have about a week and a half left until the bar and there's no way I can learn what I need to learn in that amount of time. I am so fucked.

Class was brutal due to the test and the fact that I'm sick as all hell. I need a day to just rest and let my body re-coup, but I don't have a day. My throat hurts so bad I can barely talk or swallow, I have a decently high fever (around 102), I feel like I'm gonna barf, I'm dizzy, earlier today I had a migraine (which began during the afternoon section of the exam and lasted until about an hour ago), and I'm on the rag. This sucks. I NEED to get better. I'm so scared of what's going to happen now that I'm sick. Due to some health problems of mine, every time I get a cold it goes through various stages and I usually end up with pneumonia. I can't afford to get that sick right now!!! If I get pneumonia I end up in the hospital. I don't have a day for that before the bar and I sure as hell can't miss the bar no matter how sick I am. I suck enough at all of this as it is, I don't need to feel like ass on top of all of that. This sucks so bad. I'm all hepped up on meds right now and my throat still hurts so bad that I wince when I swallow.

I passed out when I got home today. My body needed the rest. Rob woke me up when he got home and I let him know that I saw another huge monster spider in the living room this morning. He looked around, found it lurking behind the couch, and killed it for me. Yay! He then went out to get me a Slurpee since it would help my throat a bit. I swear, he has to be the best and most supportive hubby on the face of this planet. He rocks. Because I have to get up at 6am tomorrow for class, and because I feel like shit, we ordered in food tonight (Koo Koo Roo - mashed potatoes sounded good to me) and just watched a bit of television. Once I'm done on here I'm going to sleep since I have to get up way early tomorrow and spend all day going over half of the simulated MBE exam that I took today. Life sucks.

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