As a lot of you know from prior postings (both by Rob and myself), Rob has a pretty high cholesterol level. We've been trying to take it down and eat healthier, but it might not be working like we had hoped.

Last night while in bed Rob mentioned that he was short of breath. He hadn't been doing anything physical - just laying down and trying to get some sleep. I asked him if there were any other problems and he said no. After he was able to breathe better we went to sleep.

Today the shortness of breath happened again and this time it happened with a pressure like feeling on his chest. He went to see the employee nurse practitioner and the news she gave him wasn't too good. She thought it could be the first stages of a heart problem and told him to get in and see a doctor (and get an EKG and a stress test).

This isn't supposed to be happening. He's 28 years old. I'm the one with the palpatations and yet he's the one who needs to get his heart looked at by a doctor. I really, really, really hope that this is something else. I don't know what I would do if anything ever happened to him. I never thought I would say this about anyone, but I need him. I've tried my best to be independant most of my life and then after we started dating and falling in love I found myself needing him. Not needing him to do anything in particular, just needing him around me and by my side.

I need to just clear my head and not freak out until he sees a doctor. He has an appointment on Thursday and I'll be heading over to the hospital where he works so I can be there (even if it is just in the waiting room) with him for the apppointment. And if the pressure and shortness of breath happens again tonight I'm taking him to the ER.